bOtheRed bY pSymbody…

dazed with the uncertainties...

im being bugged about this feeling for quite a while.

i dont know if it’s real that im feeling this thing again.

honestly, i am uncertain.

not sure of psymbody’s feelings towards me.

but i’ll try to risk. i’ll be true to psymbody

even though i don’t know if he’s not to me.

but definitely i will not give my all trust.

i will leave tons for myself,

coz i don’t want to start breaking my heart again.

it’s such an awe seeing me pray to GOD.

pleading HIM to guide psymbody,

to protect him from all harm,

to make him happy,

and to be the one that I’ve been waiting for.

( i hope psymbody also did the same thing for me )

and as my journey through this path of bewilderness continues,

i hope and pray that it will lead me to a happily ever after ending.

Add comment March 5, 2009 rockiztaz

am i really that bad???

i dnt mean to hurt anybody… i know i have my flaws… am not perfect ok? that’s what all humans are… i have pretended many times that im just fine even though im not really…i pretended to be hapi wd sum1 special, but in truth, im suffering from being alone.. honestly, its like im stabbing my own wd a dagger.

ur dear to me but i dnt think i still love you.. i have treasured those memories that we have shared together in our past… I have cherished every moment that i have spent with you… even if we’re not really like before, still, i treated you as sum1 really special… but i didn’t expect that it wud turn out to be a mistake… you have expected so much… you thought, there wud be another chance for the both of us…but it’s not what i inteded…all i want is a sincere friendship with you… im sorry if i have to tell you this … but im just being honest now… i dnt want to hurt you even more…

a week ago, u blamed me for being the rison y uv changed a lot… and that, for the second time, i hurt you again for keeping you waiting… for a misunderstood promise of mine… you know what? my heart was torn apart when i heard it from you… i felt as though im the wicked witch stopping the prince charming to enter the castle…T_T

now that uv decided to detach yourself from any communication with me coz you think it wud be the best thing to do, i respect ur decsion… I guess it would just be the end of it now… but,.. someday, if our paths will meet again, im hoping that somehow there will be no more grudges…

so long my friend…

1 comment March 4, 2009 rockiztaz

Risking My Heart Again

For quite some time now

I felt weird yet amazed

Feels like some kind of charm hits me

I don’t know where and how it started

Just felt the spark all over again

Since I met him, my world changed

For some reason, couldn’t hide nor deny it

I really didn’t understand

Why my heart beats like a drum

Can’t comprehend the gist

And he unlocked my heart

To an extreme little thingy called love

Can’t explain these feeling I’m going through

It’s not like me to fall so easily

But you know it’s so crazy

I try my best not to show

Funnily it’s written on my face

And then I knew I got the ace.

Add comment February 3, 2009 rockiztaz

Left Broken

I have written this poem 2yrs ago. Thanks for xeena macronie for inspiring me to post this blog.(She saw my page empty. and then she told me: ” tanggalin mo nlng kya yang blog mo. Wla namang laman! inutil!!” hahaha…) So i decided to share this “kaechusan” with you… This will be the proof that i have moved on! =D

It’s bEen dark and gloomy

And I’m walking all alone

tRying to find a thing

Yet don’t know what it really is

I know it Is such fool act

But couldn’t stop myself for doing so

Couldn’t understand myself why I’m still holding on

To some sort of swear

That Keeps back and forth.

Yet really no idea if it’s real

Many have seen me carefree;

Almost all don’t know I’m crying

I’m hiding something inside

Wore a disguise that hid the real me

Deep down inside I’m bleeding

And it’s hurting me for so long.

I couldn’t stop this feeling alone

So I need one that could ease the pain

And could help me stand again

Now, I’m tired of the hoPes

Wish thAt I could move on

Just so tough tO let go

But I know I could go on

If he wanted to hurt me, then do it quicKly

I’m trying tO escape the misery

If it’s what he wanted it to be

Then forget about me

Just leave me broken

1 comment February 3, 2009 rockiztaz